Tuesday, March 29, 2011
@ 4:01 AM
I don't think it matters anymore if I've grown apart from certain people. It's nothing less than normal that people come and go. And you know what? I'm okay with that. I've learned to accept that these happenings are part and parcel of life. I'm grateful though, for learning things the hard way.
Nothing and no one has ever emotionally tortured me to such an extent but, despite it's cons, come the pros. It feels like, I've always been on training wheels thinking they'd never come off but when someone actually took the liberty to, I didn't realize when moving forward until I fell, giving me bruises me all over. But I'm partly to blame because I never thought those training wheels would come off but they did when I wasn't well prepared for the fall; I have you to thank for that.
You've taught me how to be independent. You've planted the thought in my head telling me that one day, no one's gonna be there for me. That I'll have to be strong for my own sake, for no one but myself. And I couldn't agree with you more.
As much as I'd hate to admit it, I'm still struggling to get back up on my own two feet but I'm getting there. I don't need anyone to feel sorry for me because I know I'm coming outve this a-hell-lot stronger than I was before and pity won't do any good for me so don't bother. (: I don't know how to thank you because seeing as we're not on talking terms right now or if we'll ever be talking again for that matter, I think this will have to do.
Whether you'll ever read this or not, I hope all is good with you. No matter how bad things may have ended between the both of us, I will never come to terms of hating you for the choice you chose. I respect your decision and as long as you're happy, that's all that matters. I hope you find everything you're looking for and more. Take care and all the best, J. x
Nothing and no one has ever emotionally tortured me to such an extent but, despite it's cons, come the pros. It feels like, I've always been on training wheels thinking they'd never come off but when someone actually took the liberty to, I didn't realize when moving forward until I fell, giving me bruises me all over. But I'm partly to blame because I never thought those training wheels would come off but they did when I wasn't well prepared for the fall; I have you to thank for that.
You've taught me how to be independent. You've planted the thought in my head telling me that one day, no one's gonna be there for me. That I'll have to be strong for my own sake, for no one but myself. And I couldn't agree with you more.
As much as I'd hate to admit it, I'm still struggling to get back up on my own two feet but I'm getting there. I don't need anyone to feel sorry for me because I know I'm coming outve this a-hell-lot stronger than I was before and pity won't do any good for me so don't bother. (: I don't know how to thank you because seeing as we're not on talking terms right now or if we'll ever be talking again for that matter, I think this will have to do.
Whether you'll ever read this or not, I hope all is good with you. No matter how bad things may have ended between the both of us, I will never come to terms of hating you for the choice you chose. I respect your decision and as long as you're happy, that's all that matters. I hope you find everything you're looking for and more. Take care and all the best, J. x